Today is our Anniversary. We have been married 5 years! My husband should win an award for lasting this long!
It got me thinking of the major milestones that have occurred over the last 5 years, and it brought me to this topic…Pregnancy.
When my Husband and I decided we were ready to try for a Baby, it was a truly magical moment. We were about 4 shots of tequila deep, and I literally said “let’s make a baby!”. Romantic, right?!! Ha! We tend to make most life changing decisions like this. We decided to move into together around 4am over Chinese takeout….
Anyways, a few weeks after deciding it was time for a baby, we were at the Gym and I hopped on a treadmill for a run. About 1 minute in, I was dying because with every step, my boobs felt like they were about to fall off. I hit pause, and stood there for a minute trying to figure out what the hell was going on. Then, the light bulb went off. I ran upstairs to find my husband and told him we needed to run to Walgreens RIGHT NOW. I bought a pregnancy test, and was all sketchy carrying it under my arm to the check-out line. I felt like everyone was judging me. Maybe that’s because I’m totally nosey and stare at other people doing the same thing… Really, I’m just curious about what’s going through their mind at that moment…
We get home, eat some food, my husband leaves for an event and I figured it was the right time to take THE test. After a few minutes of just staring at this little stick, I called my husband, who was driving at the time mind you, and said “Hey babe, I’m pregnant!!!”. Now, looking back, I probably should have waited for him to pull over or get to his destination before giving him this information, but, I was excited! I could not believe it! I mean, I could, what was I expecting to happen! But, I was still in complete shock! I never thought it would happen so quickly.
Naturally, the first place I went after getting this great news was Target. I needed to buy 50 more pregnancy tests to make sure this was legit! I continued to obsessively take tests until my first doctors appointment. We spent a small fortune on First Response Pregnancy Tests because I got a serious high off of seeing that second line pop up faster and faster. Don’t even try to pretend like you didn’t do the same. I won’t believe you!
Once it sunk in that we were in fact, having a baby, I completely panicked. I wasn’t sure what was more terrifying… that there was a tiny human being growing inside of me, or, that I eventually had to get this thing out!!
The 9 months that followed those “two little lines”, were nothing like I imagined. I gained 65 pounds. Yes, I said 65. I couldn’t roll over in bed, I got stuck in the bathtub, broke our shoe rack trying to get my Uggs on, and cried pretty much everyday. It was HORRIBLE. Why anyone would tell you that pregnancy is beautiful, is beyond me. I looked like a freakin’ whale going through puberty. Awful. Just awful.
I’m pretty sure our friends and family were terrified to be around me. They probably thought I was going to eat them for dinner!
But, those 9 months came and went, I eventually got the baby out (that was no easy task!) and our beautiful little boy, Brody, was born! Once I saw that little face looking at me, I said, NEVER AGAIN! He was perfect, we all survived, and I was DONE!
Then I got pregnant with Harper, 9 months later and did it all over again…. I blame wine for that one!
I kid. We love you, Harper!!!
Pregnancy is a blessing. The fact that we can give life is an amazing thing. But, it’s probably the scariest experience of your life. You really have no control over what’s happening with your body. You just have to trust that everything will be ok… That’s really hard for a total control freak like me! Whenever I see a Mom waddling down the street, looking completely miserable with serious cankles, my heart goes out to her. But, I am also secretly jealous. She’s about to experience the greatest moment in her life.
And that, my friends, is why the Oh $%&* moment is totally worth it.
If you’re pregnant, just had a baby, or reading this at 4am because your beautiful little monster won’t sleep… I’ve been there. Twice. I promise it get’s better! Cherish these moments because they go by fast.